Apparently, I've been testosterone-free for two years

Here's the photo I shared yesterday for Transgender Day of Visibility. Look how damn trans I am! I'm just spewing it all over Tumblr HQ. Apparently, today is my two year HRTiversary (anniversary of the day I started hormone replacement therapy). Who knew? I mean, I guess I did in the back of my head, but I completely forgot about it. I only even thought about it today because of a friend who reminded me this morning by wishing me happy HRTiversary. [Read More]

One year

Tumblr Halloween party A year ago yesterday, I went to bed at the end of the day knowing it was the end of my last day living a lie. The next day, I woke up no longer living a double life. I was Amelia and that was it. While my past life sometimes feels so long ago as to almost stop seeming real, it’s hard to believe it’s been a year already since I “went live. [Read More]

Has it been worth it?

This has been a rough week emotionally. Like, just brutal. I’m just starting to really recover from Monday, but it’s left me with a lot of lingering feelings. I’ve spent a lot of time thinking about transition’s affect on me. Has it really been a net positive on my life? I think the answer is yes, but it’s not firm and clear-cut answer. Much of my dysphoria is gone and I’m happier with who I am and my ability to be something closer to “myself. [Read More]

The very dark side of messing with your body's hormones

Trigger warning for talking about suicide As you can tell by the trigger warning, this post will touch on suicide a bit. I’ve written about this a few times before, but, while I know it won’t be the last time I write about it by any means, I’m always a little hesitant to write about it again. It always seems to raise concern with at least a few people. But, as I have written about before, being able to write about these kinds of things has always been helpful to me. [Read More]

I went bathing suit shopping

Transition has made me have to face a lot of things I used to be able to take for granted. A bathing suit used to be as simple as a pair of shorts with some netting inside. Like the pattern? Cool. Done. And it didn’t really matter how I looked. No one really cares what a guy looks like in a bathing suit unless you hit either one of the extremes (super ripped and jacked or morbidly obese). [Read More]

Amelia teaches Trans 101: How to refer to a trans person's past

image source: wikiHow This is something that seems to come up from time to time so I think it’s an important thing to talk about. What’s the best way to talk about a trans person’s past? For example, if you’re telling a story about someone, how should your refer to them? Should you use their chosen name and the pronouns they’ve asked you to use or should you stick with what they went by at the time? [Read More]

My life is totally not what I expected it to be and I'm really happy about that

The color version of this photo is literally my favorite photo of me *ever* I’ve been thinking a lot recently about how we change and grow. Sometimes, our lives turn out so far from where we thought they would, it’s hard to believe we’re physically the same person we used to be—well, okay, I’m not quite even physically the same person anymore, but you know what I mean. [Read More]