Almost legally Amelia

See that photo below? That’s the newspaper announcement that’s required to change your name in New Jersey. It’s being published tomorrow (October 16, 2013)! My court date is on November 8th and then that’ll be it, I’ll legally be Amelia June! So excited to finally leave my birth name behind!

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As we grow

I don’t typically spend a whole lot of time being nostalgic. Every so often, it’s fun to reminisce about the past and such, but I mostly try to live in the present while glancing to the future. My past is full all kinds of ups and downs and, for the most part, I think it’s best to keep it all in the past. Usually. Last night was a somewhat rare departure from this, I spent much of the night with a friend of mine taking a trip down memory lane. [Read More]

T-minus 31 days until Me 2.0 goes live!

Today is October 1 which means the beta period is almost over and I am exactly one month away from going live with Me 2.0! Yes, I’m calling it “going live” instead of “full time.” It’s more fun this way and “full time” makes it sound like it’s a job. And while I’m on the topic my own personal nomenclature I use for transition, I often like to say things like “regeneration” (yes, like The Doctor) instead of “transition” and “running estrogen on unlicensed hardware. [Read More]

Yes, I still have a sense of humor

I’m pretty sure the only reason why anyone was friends with me throughout most of my life was my sense of humor. I never really took much seriously and, I think, that made me a fun person to be around. Somehow, despite not taking anything seriously, I’ve always had my “life together,” as they say, but I’m also 100% certain I spent a lot of time simply being a jerk because I thought everyone else was laughing too. [Read More]

Changing jobs while transitioning...or Transition: the ultimate complication

Transitioning is kind of a pain. I mean, besides the cost, the time, the meds, the doctor’s visits and lab tests, getting your face blasted with a laser, buying a whole new wardrobe (which is fun, but also kind of scary and expensive), having to deal with “coming out” to people, possibly losing friends and family, exposing yourself to all kinds of new discrimination, and about a thousand other things, it simply just complicates life. [Read More]

The hopelessness of knowing you'll never be beautiful

http://mtfconfessions.tumblr.com/post/59441734756/3526-im-30-and-im-terrified-that-if-i I used to feel this way. With each passing year, it would feel more and more hopeless. Eventually, I realized there was no choice and it didn’t matter if I was beautiful or not after transition, I just needed to stop living a lie. Of course, I am hoping for a miracle and that I’ll at the very least be _somewhat_ pretty or cute, but whatever level of attractiveness I do or do not achieve doesn’t change that transition is simply the right thing for me. [Read More]

Three months on HRT!

I almost didn’t even realize that today is exactly three months on hormones! Yay! I would have liked to write up a bit more than this for it, but I’m running out of time on the day. So instead, I’ll just share some of the changes I’ve already noticed: My chest hair grows back much slower and thinner. Two weeks ago I started to feel some tenderness under my nipples. [Read More]