Amelia or Amy, but preferably Amelia

. One of the things I liked was I could go by Amy for short, if I wanted. When I came out to people I’d always say “Amelia, or Amy for short.” Some people would ask me if I preferred one or the other—actually, most of my coworkers asked me this. I appreciated it because it seemed like they cared about me enough to make sure they called me what I wanted. [Read More]

Amelia teaches Trans 101: "sex change," "pre-op," and is being transgender only a temporary status?

Welcome to Amelia’s Trans 101 class! Here, I will be going over some simple transgender related items to help teach a basic understanding of what being transgender really means. This is a free class and it is open to all! Grades will be a simple pass/fail! For this week’s lesson, I would like to address a question a friend of mine asked me the other day. I think this question and its wording really opens up to a lot of misconceptions and outdated information and views. [Read More]

One quarter. Three months. Ninety days.

This is actually quite bonkers to me when I think about it, but I’ve been living out and openly transgender for three months. As they say, I’m full time, but I still prefer calling it “being live.” Or, even more simply, “living.” Three months isn’t really a long time, but it’s hard to believe it’s even been that long. It still feels like something that just happened last week. [Read More]

How transitioning changed me as a runner and do I have an advantage as a transgender athlete?

I’ve written about a lot of this over the course of the last few months, but a few people have requested a post dedicated to how I’ve changed as a runner because of transition. Since I’ve read two articles about transgender athletes in the past few days, I figured it was finally time to write about it myself. While my experience has been in line with the experiences of other trans women I’ve spoken to regarding the topic, I do want it to be noted that this is very specifically about my experience and it may not be universal to all transgender (women) runners. [Read More]

It doesn't matter how fast of a runner you are, you can't outrun your past

I’ve talked before about how much I used to hate myself and how, looking back, it’s easy to see I used to be a crappy person. I’ve grown immensely and I’m not that same awful person. I don’t hate myself at all anymore. While I’ve been able to take ownership of my past and admit to the things I did and said, I’m learning I some of those things still have lasting effects I can’t easily undo or run from. [Read More]

Being transgender and transitioning doesn't make me brave or courageous

I hate to break it to you, but I’m not brave or courageous or any other similar such thing. I know, it certainly looks that way, what with the transitioning and deciding to live my life authentically and all that, but I’m not. This is the most consistent response I’ve received over the last year and a half when telling people about my transition. Don’t get me wrong, I truly do appreciate the sentiment and, even more than that, I appreciate the support it typically comes along with. [Read More]

Mirror, Mirror

Still gotta work on that smile For 30 years, I’d look in the mirror many times every day, but I never saw a real person staring back at me. I’d see this thing that I’m pretty sure was supposed to be a person. I mean he looked liked a person and all that, there were eyes and a nose and a mouth and arms and legs, but I had no connection to him. [Read More]